My Most Emo Entry So Far

Hello.

I just got home from Del Amo with Mimi. We went to go try and find jobs. I have been spending alot of money these days on hanging out/clothes/food and it's only been a week since I've been a "second semester senior". I've used up almost all of what little money I had to begin with! How horrible!

So it was no condolence to have a pretty unsuccessful job-hunt today. For some reason, no one is hiring right now but a good number said they would be hiring in a month or two's time. Which is no help to me. I NEED A JOB NOW!

So I'm still on the lookout I guess. The good news is, I did get a mini-tutoringjob but I don't expect to be making that much from it.

Hopefully, doors will open up soon? :\

Anyway, at the end of the last entry I said I would not update until I heard back from USC. It has been about a week and I have yet to hear back from them. I am starting to get more and more anxious and worried. A few of the friends who were in the same boat as me got their letters this week too which worries me more! sigh...

I totally was half-expecting to hear back really soon with good news but I suppose I will have to wait longer.

Also, this past week has been a bit of a dip in my spiritual intimacy with God. Because of all the free time I have had, my discipline in reading the Word and spending more time in meditation and prayer has certainly taken a hit. I have instead spent many hours hanging out with friends and doing more "stimulating" things.

This also worries me also. My life this past week has been worshipping these distractions instead of the only one worthy of my time and value. I've also had more difficulty with sin. I wish I'd be able to fight temptation off better and not become such an easy victim for Satan. I guess you could say it's been a rougher week spiritually? But I am confident in my being able to rebound strong. I have been reminded again of how much I constantly need Christ close by my side. This means constant pursuit of God's wisdom through his Word and just alot more time spent in prayer.

I have also been considering fasting but I'm not sure about it yet. It just crossed my mind briefly as I thought of ways to renew and purify my mind/spirit in a dramatic way. I guess we shall see.

Oh and also, I am signed up to perform at "PV Unplugged" which is a coffee-house kind of event thing at our school on February 19th! I am trying to decide which songs to play but I have no idea how much time I will get in my set so I'm just going to wait. We'll see I guess but I'm pretty excited.

I also started "working out" this past week. I officially began on monday with about 100 pushups of different variations and have been very consistent with my routine (I've been doing a few different kinds of situps/pushups) with only a couple days rest in between so I've been pretty sore. I am hoping to fill out my flabby body with iron muscle. My sister said my arms are pure flab which is obviously not true but nonetheless, I am motivated by comments like that. ahhaha

That's really all I have to say for now. Not too much going on in my life. Just bad news or ehhh kind of stuff. Not a whole lot of good updates. Pretty routine stuff I guess. I think I will hold off on updates until I have something profound and passionate to say, otherwise I just end up blabbering like this. Oh and I hate school. It doesn't make me think.

That's all for now.
Yeap.