My First Semester of College Life

I have officially completed my first semester of college.

What a wild ride that was. I think it is safe to say that it was one of the most testing periods of my life spiritually, emotionally, socially, physically, and mentally.

Spirtually, because God has really given me many trials and challenges to weather and learn from. Though draining and frustrating at times, I have come to a point now where I've learned a lot more about who I am and where I stand spiritually. God cast a blinding light on my weaknesses and showed me where I was disobedient, sinful, and could grow and change the most. The refiner's fire boiled me at my core; though painful and relentless, many impurities have been removed. I want more and need more of this in my life. I'm still so broken, weak, and flawed. God has particularly showed me my weak foundations of faith. I really need to start over and rebuild my trust and love for my God. Integrity, obedience, trust, love, and faith have become big key words in my prayers as of late.

Physically because I have never slept so little in my life on a consistent basis. Long nights of sleepless studying, coupled with little physical activity and bad eating have taken a physical toll as well.

Mentally because I have put all of my strength and energy into my schoolwork. I have made grades my number one priority so I've put in more work than many other students. This is probably why I haven't made as many friends as I could have, but there's always time for that I guess.

Emotionally, because of the spiritual journey I've been on. Not to mention the mental and physical strain that school places on me. Lots of things going on combined with some relationship happenings made everything an emotional ride.

Socially because I have learned a lot about myself this semester. The way people perceive me, things that I've been in denial about, things I genuinely need to change about myself, and many other things have been revealed to me by some, particularly Crystal. Life Group meetings have also kept my magnifying glass on my heart and my personality, and I'm become more aware of how I interact with others. Very good and many important lessons learned in this area as well.

So basically, I've been pounded and humbled and schooled in just about every category imaginable. It has truly been a comprehensive time of learning, struggling, frustration, growth, and refinement.

Life is good and God is good always.

Let's see what lessons he brings this winter break. I'm open and ready for Him to discipline and teach me. I hope to make this month or so a contemplative and reflective season. I want to write some songs about my experiences and lessons learned. I want to bless others and receive blessings from others as well. I wish to love God more and to free up my heart for him.

I'm ready to become a man.